Last night I was given another epiphany. I know that there is hardly anything worse than someone who has just had an epiphany because they surely feel the need to go around explaining to everyone how profound their experience was and how important and how necessary it is that everyone should share in their revelation.
So let me set this aside and merely say that the experience was like being touched by a hand and having my sight extended into the darkness.
Similation. That all things are created in the image of the Unnamed. I might even interpret this as being in Her name. I see now, upon further reflection, that mine was the vision of self similarity in which I could suddenly sense what is really meant by something called Oneness or Unity. Silly, really. The simplicity of it all. I guess that’s why it is called an epiphany.
Once before I had the “epiphany of form” in which I sat eating breakfast on the porch of a little Mexican restaurant in Jackson, California. The sun had barely risen that Sunday morning. The short stack of pancakes seemed especially good, and the taste of the butter and honey was rich and went well with the dark roast coffee. I was looking across the valley at a hillside. How well I remember all those trees and bushes, rocks and rills, suddenly coalescing into a single form with an incomplete, yet profound beauty that held me in thrall for several moments before a delivery truck drove in front of me and dissipated the connection. But during that short time, I absolutely knew how I was connected to that hillside, and what that meant.
Last night Oneness suddenly made complete, visceral sense. I “saw” the pattern emerge and where I fit within it. I don’t want to be metaphysical about this. I don’t want you to think this was experience occurring at a higher plane of existence. No, it was a simple, raw, and perhaps momentarily frightening experience in which I seemed to drift away and touch the universe.
So, if this is the second time that I’ve had a “similar” epiphany does it “mean” anything? I suppose that if I’m true to my philosophy, it is significant. Will there be a third revelation in which all things will be made clear? I think not.